Close calls and close shams

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IKMAL AND DANN KOH

Sigh, Im quite disappointed by the 'lack of taste' for certain judging criteria for MSU... I was kinda prepared for the worst. Miss J was among the 6 gals whose MSU journey came to an end. And from what I see in that list, she's actually the prettiest (unless she wasnt eloquent enough? But thats not possible). And she was definitely many times better than a handful of contestants who made it to the finals. Although Im obviously disappointed by her elimination, Im still proud of her no matter what. I admire her confidence and courage to take part in a contest... altho she's been ousted, she's still Number 1 to me. But her elimination seemed to haf triggered the Venom side within me once more...
On Sunday afternoon, right after church service, I was very close to making a fool of myself in front of everyone in the bus to Suntec City... u see, there's this pretty gal in white top sitting 2 seats in front of me and Mother, and as I noticed her, my heart started pumping non-stop... the fair-skinned gal looks A LOT like Felicia from side view, and even her voice sounds alike (but I knew it could not be Fel cos her current hairstyle was straight). My mum noticed me acting rather uncomfortable, and she started getting angry. Still, I persisted and waited til the bus arrived at the stop behind Suntec City. So when I took a closer look at the gal (who got off the same step)... I heaved a deep sigh of relief... it wasn't Felicia at all, but a mere lookalike whose face was smaller and lips thicker (yet still sexy, heh). Tris was abt to laugh at me for the close call to self-humilation... yet as the three of us headed for lunch at Fish and Co, I realised that the Venom side was very close to taking over my mind earlier on (it didnt help that I was still reeling in agony from Miss J's MSU journey end earlier)... like it did to that crazy guy named Sean who had embraced the dark side wholly at such a young age. Still, I cannot imagine what I would do if it were really Felicia in the bus.
On the brighter side of things, I bought more Spider-Man toys from different Toys R Us outlets, but it was extremely difficult to relocate the super-articulated Symbiote Spider-Man figure...
I end off wif another 'pop-song angst ridden' dedication to Miss Lu, Felicia and to Miss J...

Day after day, time passed away
And I just can't get you out of my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I just can't find

The courage to show to let you know
I've never felt so much love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

CHORUS
But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know if I let you go

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I've got to choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know if I let you go?

If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know (yeahhhh... ahhhh)
What my life would be holding you close to me (close to me yeah)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know... if I let you go?
But if I let you go I will never know
Ooooh baby...
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know... if I let you go